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i was thinking back the episode of what 小育 said in honey & clover. "不要回来，我希望他不要回来，让我们把自己该做的事做玩" Then i understood about life, about friendships and relationships. Maybe because i am not those to force people to stay in my lives.. Friends leave for studies, i will tell them jiayou and come back safely, ask them to take care. If one day, i really see the person that i like and he chose to leave, or go somewhere else first, i will also let the person leave. Dont really like to force into anything at all.. 12pm, was waiting for sihui, but i ended practising in the end.. Then it was already 12.30 and the girl still not here and so i sms her, so she said the day wrongly, it should be sun, which means tml. Blur girl, dont mix up again okie.. So i practised till 1pm, recorded chen sui.. Then i realised where my problem lies. Happy with some things i played.. like lunzhi, first time i hear the line.. maybe i havent recorded my playing for too long. But i think for 1 more day, if i prac well, chen sui technique should be done. Just not clean and control of lun not good enough yet.. The feeling is so so hard to catch, i am not old enough? or i must feel even more for the song? hmmm.. because i only practised 1 hour, so it isnt enough.. nighttime will practise again one :) Need to finish sam's stuff. its nearing, the extended deadline haha. watched NYCO play today. What i can say is, girls power, not to be undermined.. haha. I like the girl playing timpani, she has the power, is good. Shall not say about the bad.. I also like lim qing, she is really not bad, very very good potential. Quite like her yinse, very full.. like the way she play certain things in 第一二胡狂想曲.. her music is rather good, can go further than some professionals.. Different people have different opinions, i dont expect whole world to agree with me also.. Different people see different things. But i dont really hear music in the performance, its just more hands moving than music flowing.. But as a orchestra, i find it quite good. Worth applauding.. I learn things from some soloist too.. its nice to learn things from performance once in a while :) But not happy with a particular person la. But not so angry also, cause maybe i didnt see the person as important now. Ever since that particular one day, i decided not to care, maybe in the past i was reminded but i didnt notice..Well, isnt important la, the person happy can already. To me, what is important now is not whether his life is good, friends live their own lives, i dont bring it to my life and make myself miserable or irritated also :) Oh shit, i becoming like a hack care person.. well, its healthier for me :) i still have friends to talk to.. like huiyi, mingrang, chunmei, yiqing they all.. its enough le :) I just dont like people forsaking something to gain something that makes them happy for a while only. All along i didnt like, and i said before already also le.. i cant change them, so i change myself.. i learn to smile more.. not fret.. not stressed, not cry.. i tried to enter the sentence i thought in my brain.. then i deleted the sentence off.. and ended with a smile. xueqi, you have really tried.. 没关系，我会习惯的:) my pictures! 
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